Τίτλοι τέλους;

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“Βλέπουν τον καθρέφτη, βλέπουν την ώρα,
ρωτούν αν είναι τρέλα τάχα ή λάθος,
«όλα τελείωσαν» ψιθυρίζουν «τώρα»,
πως θ’ αναβάλουν βέβαιοι κατά βάθος.”

Όλα τελείωσαν λοιπόν. Και τώρα τι; Κοιτάω λίγο το σώμα μου, περπατάω προς το παράθυρο.

 

Άξιζε;

 

Γυρνάω πίσω. Προσπαθώ να τα αλλάξω όλα. Μάταια.

Βλέπω άτομα γύρω μου. Δεν μπορώ να μιλήσω, δεν μπορώ να συμμετέχω, απλά υπάρχω χωρίς να ζω. Κινούμαι ανάμεσα σας, χωρίς να ζω.

 

Μπορώ να τα δω όλα πια. Να ταξιδέψω παντού. Δεν βλέπω όμως πρόσωπα. Δεν μπορώ να δω ξανά κανένα πρόσωπο.

 

Άξιζε;

 

Πώς θα γυρίσω; Δεν έχω κάτι άλλο να κάνω εδώ. Δεν έχω κάτι να δω. Και ο κόσμος που τάχα κάποτε ήθελα να γυρίσω, δεν υπάρχει.

Δεν θέλω να ζω εδώ. Πρέπει να γυρίσω, ΠΡΕΠΕΙ.

 

Δεν αξίζει!

 

 

 

Ανοίγω τα μάτια, είμαι στο ίδιο σημείο. Τίποτα δεν άλλαξε. όλα είναι όπως πριν.

 

Δεν αξίζει!

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5 thoughts on “Τίτλοι τέλους;

    • No problem, I will try and translate this one for you..
      The first is from Karuwtakis poem Best “suiciders”: They see the mirror, the see time/they ask themselves if it’s madness or just a mistake/ “it’s over” they whisper “now”/ sure deep down that they will postpone it.

      And the rest is mine! Exit music:

      Was it worth it

      I turn back, and try to change everything, in vain
      I see people around me, I cannot talk, cannot be a part, I just excist without living. I am moving around you, without being able to live.

      Was it worth it?

      I can see everything now, travel anywhere, but I can’t see any faces. I can’t see anybody’s face now!

      Was it worth it?

      How am I going to go back? I have nothing else to do here. I have nothing else to see here. And the places I wanted to visit before, do not really excist here.
      I don’t want to live here. I want to go back. I HAVE to go back!

      It wasn’t worth it.

      I open my eyes. At the same place. Nothing has changed. Everything is like it used to

      It didn’t worth it!

      • That is lovely. Philosophy. A neighbor’s sister just committed suicide. As my neighbor said, “Not everyone gets better.” Such a waste.

        • That is terrible. But it’s a decision, a really bad one that actually doesn’t worth it. But it must be really hard when you are not able to smile. That one is my ending point.. 🙂 Good morning!!

          • No one can make another person happy. That has to come from within. I hope you smile every day! I wish a few belly laughs for you, too. 🙂

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